Day 20: People of the Resurrection
I have "discovered" a fun new website that makes me giggle at http://dailyoddcompliment.tumblr.com/. This site, created by writer Logan Rhoades posts a fun and odd compliment each day. I love reading thoughts that actually reflect how I think, and here there are plenty of them. Have you ever thought about what it'd be like to have a thought bubble follow you around all the time and have your thoughts posted inside it? No? O.k. so that's just me then. But if this actually happened, the comments from this site would be like the ones in my thought bubble. For example, one of these daily odd compliments claims "My life would be a lot easier if you just made every decision for me."
This is something that I have thought often when around many, many people. Not just your run of the mill control freaks either. I remember being a young woman begging my mother for even a bit of advice while she would methodically force me to think out and solve problems for myself. I hated it. Yeah, yeah what a great mom . . . she taught me such a valuable lesson. Blagh! The only reason it's valuable is because NO ONE is willing to make my decisions for me.
Even this God of ours gave me free will!?!?!?! Doesn't he know how dangerous I will be with that? Doesn't he know that left to my own devices I can royally mess this life up for myself and maybe even for some other people he cares about? He has to know that I am q clumsy, prideful sinner-girl!? Wouldn't so many things about this life just be easier for everyone if he just made every decision for me? I imagine I would not wound him deeply as I often do.
No instead, I am told, he wants us to come to him willingly. He wants our relationship to be genuine and true. He wants me to ask for his assistance with all matters. He desires me to make my own decisions using the gifts that he has given to me. That is not to say it is I who has done anything right. The gift of a relationship with him is always there. He infuses the power of the Holy Spirit into me. He sent his son to atone for me. He provides grace that is sufficient for me. (2 Corinthians 12:9) Now, that I think about it, there really isn't much left for me to do. He even provides law and gospel for me when making the decisions I have to make.
So today, I got mad at Big D when he wouldn't tell me what to wear for our church directory picture. Big D reminds me that when decisions like that are made for me I rarely listen to them anyway. Asa gave me some wise 5-year old advice tonight. I can't even tell you what it was, but I do remember responding with "Don't tell me what to do little man." Hmmm sounds like I might just not relish the whole "make my decisions for me" thing after all. The hardest thing about being People of the Resurrection is being left to make our own decisions in a flawed and crazy world. But it is also a gift to bless our days as People of the Resurrection.
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